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ThegriefthathadpossessedhimsinceDumbledore’sdeathfeltdifferentnow.TheaccusationshehadheardfromMurielattheweddingseemedtohavenestedinhisbrainlikediseasedthings，infectinghismemoriesofthewizardhehadidolized.CouldDumbledorehaveletsuchthingshappen?HadhebeenlikeDudley，contenttowatchneglectａｎｄabuseaslongasitdidnotaffecthim?Couldhehaveturnedhisbackonasisterwhowasbeingimprisonedａｎｄhidden?

HarrythoughtofGodric’sHollow，ofgravesDumbledorehadnevermentionedthere;hethoughtofmysteriousobjectsleftwithoutexplanationinDumbledore’swill，ａｎｄresentmentswelledinthedarkness.Whyhadn’tDumbledoretoldhim?Whyhadn’theexplained?HadDumbledoreactuallycaredaboutHarryatall?OrhadHarrybeennothingmorethanatooltobepolishedａｎｄhoned，butnottrusted，neverconfidedin?

Harrycouldnotstａｎｄlyingtherewithnothingbutbitterthoughtsforcompany.Desperateforsomethingtodo，fordistraction，heslippedoutofhissleepingbad，pickeduphiswａｎｄ，ａｎｄcreptoutoftheroom.Onthelａｎｄinghewhispered，“Lumos，”ａｎｄstartedtoclimbthestairsbywａｎｄlight.

OnthesecondlａｎｄingwasthebedroominwhichheａｎｄRonhadsleptlasttimetheyhadbeenhere;heglancedintoit.Thewardrobedoorsstoodopenａｎｄthebedclotheshadbeenrippedback.Harryrememberedtheoverturnedtrolllegdownstairs.SomebodyhadsearchedthehousesincetheOrderhadleft.Snape?OrperhapsMundungus，whohadpilferedplentyfromthishousebothbeforeａｎｄafterSiriusdied?Harry’sgazewａｎｄeredtotheportraitthatsometimescontainedPhineasNigellusBlack，Sirius’sgreat-greatgrａｎｄfather，butitwasempty，showingnothingbutastretchofmuddybackdrop.PhineasNigelluswasevidentlyspendingthenightintheheadmaster’sstudyatHogwarts.

Harrycontinuedupthestairsuntilhereachedthetopmostlａｎｄingwheretherewereonlytwodoors.TheonefacinghimboreanameplatereadingSirius.Harryhadneverenteredhisgodfather’sbedroombefore.Hepushedopenthedoor，holdinghiswａｎｄhightocastlightaswidelyaspossible.Theroomwasspaciousａｎｄmustoncehavebeenhａｎｄsome.Therewasalargebedwithacarvedwoodenheadboard，atallwindowobscuredbylongvelvetcurtainsａｎｄachａｎｄelierthicklycoatedindustwithcａｎｄlescrubsstillrestinginitssockets，solidwaxbanginginfrostlikedrips.Afinefilmofdustcoveredthepicturesonthewallsａｎｄthebed’sheadboard;aspiderswebstretchedbetweenthechａｎｄelierａｎｄthetopofthelargewoodenwardrobe，ａｎｄasHarrymoveddeeperintotheroom，heheadascurryingofdisturbedmice.

TheteenageSiriushadplasteredthewallswithsomanypostersａｎｄpicturesthatlittleofthewall’ssilvery-graysilkwasvisible.HarrycouldonlyassumethatSirius’sparentshadbeenunabletoremovethePermanentStickingCharmthatkeptthemonthewallbecausehewassuretheywouldnothaveappreciatedtheireldestson’stasteindecoration.Siriusseemedtohavelonggoneoutofhiswaytoannoyhisparents.TherewereseverallargeGryffindorbanners，fadedscarletａｎｄgoldjusttounderlinehisdifferencefromalltherestoftheSlytherinfamily.ThereweremanypicturesofMugglemotorcycles，ａｎｄalso(HarryhadtoadmireSirius’snerve)severalpostersofbikini-cladMugglegirls.HarrycouldtellthattheywereMugglesbecausetheyremainedquitestationarywithintheirpictures，fadedsmilesａｎｄglazedeyesfrozenonthepaper.ThiswasincontrasttheonlyWizardingphotographonthewallswhichwasapictureoffourHogwartsstudentsstａｎｄingarminarm，laughingatthecamera.

Withaleapofpleasure，Harryrecognizedhisfather，hisuntidyblackhairstuckupatthebacklikeHarry’s，ａｎｄhetooworeglasses.BesidehimwasSirius，carelesslyhａｎｄsome，hisslightlyarrogantfacesomuchyoungerａｎｄhappierthanHarryhadeverseenitalive.ToSirius’srightstoodPettigrew，morethanaheadshorter，plumpａｎｄwatery-eyed，flushedwithpleasureathisinclusioninthiscoolestofgangs，withthemuch-admiredrebelsthatJamesａｎｄSiriushadbeen.OnJames’sleftwasLupin，eventhenalittleshabby-looking，buthehadthesameairofdelightedsurpriseatfindinghimselflikedａｎｄincludedorwasitsimplybecauseHarryknewhowithadbeen，thathesawthesethingsinthepicture?Hetriedtotakeitfromthewall;itwashisnow，afterall，Siriushadlefthimeverything，butitwouldnotbudge.Siriushadtakennochancesinpreventinghisparentsfromredecoratinghisroom.

Harrylookedaroundatthefloor.Theskyoutsidewasgrowingbrightest.Ashaftoflightrevealedbitsofpaper，books，ａｎｄsmallobjectsscatteredoverthecarpet.EvidentlySirius’sbedroomhadbeenreachedtoo，althoughitscontentsseemedtohavebeenjudgedmostly，ifnotentirely，worthless.Afewofthebookshadbeenshakenroughlyenoughtopartcompanywiththecoversａｎｄsundrypageslitteredthefloor.