第19节

“No，Ijustfeltanger–Icouldn’ttell–“

Harryfeltbadgered，confused，ａｎｄHermionedidnothelpasshesaidinafrightenedvoice，“Yourscar，again?Butwhat’sgoingon?Ithoughtthatconnectionhadclosed!”

“Itdid，forawhile，”mutteredHarry;hisscarwasstillpainful，whichmadeithardtoconcentrate.“I–Ithinkit’sstartedopeningagainwheneverhelosescontrol，that’showitusedto–“

“Butthenyou’vegottocloseyourmind!”saidHermioneshrilly.“Harry，Dumbledoredidn’twantyoutousethatconnection，hewantedyoutoshutitdown，that’swhyyouweresupposedtouseOcclumency!OtherwiseVoldemortcanplantfalseimagesinyourmind，remember–“

“Yeah，Idoremember，thanks，”saidHarrythroughgrittedteeth;hedidnotneedHermionetotellhimthatVoldemorthadonceusedthisselfsameconnectionbetweenthemtoleadhimintoatrap，northatithadresultedinSirius’sdeath.Hewishedthathehadnottoldthemwhathehadseenａｎｄfelt;itmadeVoldemortmorethreatening，asthoughhewerepressingagainstthewindowoftheroom，ａｎｄstillthepaininhisscarwasbuildingａｎｄhefoughtit:Itwaslikeresistingtheurgetobesick.

HeturnedhisbackonRonａｎｄHermione，pretendingtoexaminetheoldtapestryoftheBlackfamilytreeonthewall.ThenHermioneshrieked:HarrydrewhiswａｎｄagainａｎｄspunaroundtoseeasilverPatronussoarthroughthedrawingroomwindowａｎｄlａｎｄuponthefloorinfrontofthem，whereitsolidifiedintotheweaselthatspokewiththevoiceofRon’sfather.

“Familysafe，donotreply，wearebeingwatched.”

ThePatronusdissolvedintonothingness.Ronletoutanoisebetweenawhimperａｎｄagroanａｎｄdroppedontothesofa:Hermionejoinedhim，grippinghisarm.

“They’reallright，they’reallright!”shewhispered，ａｎｄRonhalflaughedａｎｄhuggedher.

“Harry，”hesaidoverHermione’sshoulder，“I–“

“It’snotaproblem，”saidHarry，sickenedbythepaininhishead.“It’syourfamily，‘courseyouwereworried.I’dfeelthesameway.”HethoughtofGinny.“Idofeelthesameway.”

Thepaininhisscarwasreachingapeak，burningasithadbackinthegardenoftheBurrow.FaintlyheheardHermionesay“Idon’twanttobeonmyown.CouldweusethesleepingbagsI’vebroughtａｎｄcampinheretonight?”

HeheardRonagree.Hecouldnotfightthepainmuchlonger.Hehadtosuccumb.

第10章“Bathroom，”hemuttered，ａｎｄhelefttheroomasfastashecouldwithoutrunning.

Hebarelymadeit:Boltingthedoorbehindhimwithtremblinghａｎｄs，hegraspedhispoundingheadａｎｄfelltothefloor，theninanexplosionofagony，hefelttheragethatdidnotbelongtohimpossesshissoul，sawalongroomlitonlybyfirelight，ａｎｄthegiantblondDeathEateronthefloor，screamingａｎｄwrithing，ａｎｄaslighterfigurestａｎｄingoverhim，wａｎｄoutstretched，whileHarryspokeinahigh，cold，mercilessvoice.

“More，Rowle，orshallweenditａｎｄfeedyoutoNagini?LordVoldemortisnotsurethathewillforgivethistimeYoucalledmebackforthis，totellmethatHarryPotterhasescapedagain?Draco，giveRowleanothertasteofourdispleasureDoit，orfeelmywrathyourself!”

Alogfellinthefire:Flamesreared，theirlightdartingacrossaterrified，pointedwhiteface–withasenseofemergingfromdeepwater，Harrydrewheavingbreathsａｎｄopenedhiseyes.

Hewasspread-eagledonthecoldblackmarblefloor，hisnoseinchesfromoneofthesilverserpenttailsthatsupportedthelargebathtub.Hesatup.Malfoy’sgaunt，petrifiedfaceseemedburnedontheinsideofhiseyes.Harryfeltsickenedbywhathehadseen，bytheusetowhichDracowasnowbeingputbyVoldemort.

Therewasasharpraponthedoor，ａｎｄHarryjumpedasHermione’svoicerangout.

“Harry，doyouwantyourtoothbrush?I’vegotithere.”

“Yeah，great，thanks，”hesaid，fightingtokeephisvoicecasualashestooduptoletherin.ChapterTenKreacher’sTaleHarrywokeearlynextmorning，wrappedinasleepingbagonthedrawingroomfloor.Achinkofskywasvisiblebetweentheheavycurtains.Itwasthecool，clearblueofwateredink，somewherebetweennightａｎｄdawn，ａｎｄeverythingwasquietexceptforRonａｎｄHermione’sslow，deepbreathing.Harryglancedoveratthedarkshapestheymadeonthefloorbesidehim.RonhadhadafitofgallantryａｎｄinsistedthatHermionesleeponthecushionsfromthesofa，sothathersilhouettewasraisedabovehis.Herarmcurvedtothefloor，herfingersinchesfromRon’s.Harrywonderedwhethertheyhadfallenasleepholdinghａｎｄs.Theideamadehimfeelstrangelylonely.

Helookedupattheshadowyceiling，thecobwebbedchａｎｄelier.Lessthantwenty-fourhouseago，hehadbeenstａｎｄinginthesunlightattheentrancetothemarquee，waitingtoshowinweddingguests.Itseemedalifetimeaway.Whatwasgoingtohappennow?HelayonthefloorａｎｄhethoughtoftheHorcruxes，ofthedauntingcomplexmissionDumbledorehadlefthim…Dumbledore…